Eatting: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Listening to: ... dont start with me
Weather: Nothing
Feeling: Nothing
Goal for the day: Nothing



<div align="center"><font face="Times New Roman, Times, serif" color="#00CC00"><b><font size="5">HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY! </font></b></font></div>

Wee. I love St. Patrick's Day! Get to see little people running around as leprechauns... well. one person in my Chem class did.. XD I have to admit, they looked cute in it lol. Anyway. I woke up this morning at 5, took a shower, got dressed, set my alarm clock to wake me up in 10 minutes, then went back to sleep... that is... until mom woke up at 8 and discovered I was still sleeping. I <i>HARDLY</i> remember her in my room talkin about who knows what.. all I remember is "I'll wake you up at 10, is that ok?" and.. I said something and went back to sleep. lol. I got to school at 11. Basically had a half day n.n *has no problem with that!* I was happy to miss some of the more boring classes of the morning.. and scared Ken with my insane cheery-ness.

He had nothing to say to me with the exception of the comments of me being so happy. >.>;; one of them being "Ah, I see you've found the bong!" i'm all "-.-;; why is it no one can have a smile on their face for no reason at all? its a known fact.. you brighten another persons day when they see you happy." (later he felt like b*tchin at me for supposedly enjoying pissing him off the past week or so.. for the most ... stupid reasons ever. ie: 1. correcting his spelling, 2. telling him I didnt like that he never said a <i>word</i> to me since I told him I didnt wanna be with him, and 3. introducing him to a friend.. in which.. he said was .. morally wrong? wth? I sat there and watched the whole convo.. all that was said was "hi" and "where do you live?" ~_~;; I swear. He's more of a fricking girl that I am. He's one of those guys who has PMS 25/8 )

.. the day went on..

Joel scared me at lunch and also got a little too close to me (as in.. if he was any closer, he'd be on my lap).. I wanted to smack him.. I think the other guys at the table figured that out and did so for me XD;; (i sit at a table with 4 guys and 1 other girl) He was making the worst jokes.. I was laughing so hard at his stupidity. I even hid my face so the only other person to the other side of me could actually see me and mouthed "SAVE ME!" .. he laughed patted my knee and said "I wish I could".. of course.. the rest of the table completely missed that and were all "wth?" .. heh.. why do I have to have that lunch every other day? (for all who dun know about my screwed up schedule.. every other day, my lunch period changes x_x) Hmm.. the rest of the day went on as usual.. then I got home.. got online.. did whatever.. Geah.. now I have school tomorrow... how come time passes so quickly?! The nights go by so fast.. but the school day drags on.

I was to learn today that of all quarters, this one was the shortest, and had the least grades. Guess what! I. FUCKED. UP. -_- Excuse my language, please. In math it shows that i'm MISSING all of my work.. WTH?! MISSING?! I HAVE BEEN DOING IT ALL AND TURNING IT ALL IN! WTH?!!

.. and in Chem...

omg. fuck that class. (-_- I apologize for my language. please excuse me once again.) I used to <i>LOVE</i> chem.. until I moved to this class.. the teacher doesn't explain anything.. she doesn't actually teach us what is going on! She writes some equation on the board.. out of the blue it seems.. then tells us to solve it.. i'm.. so frickin lost. I've tried asking her to explain it to me, but she tells me what she said before.. it makes no sense.. I dont need her to <i>repeat</i> what she said.. I need her to EXPLAIN. So.. I've tried asking students around me.. wich.. are mostly people who dont do their work, or are people who tell me to do it on my own and wont help. -_- I was carrying a proud A in that class.. now i'm sure I have an F.

I hate it. I hate being at the bottom in school.. i'm better than that!

Lets see.. in World Cultures.. the one I had my huge project due today in.. I.. just.. messed that class up for myself though. I didn't make the poster for my presentation.. i hate being a procrastinator ._. too bad I don't have poster board to finish my project still.. ._. *sigh* .. then I have this project in graphic design.. its my whole quarter grade. I am very behind on that as well.

We are doing a client project. What is that? We find someone to represent.. make a logo for a business of theirs or whatever.. and ... tons of other stuff.. but we have to work with them to decide how everything will look and all. Oh but lucky me! I got a teacher I had to make things for! Guess what! THE CLASS PERIOD I HAVE GRAPHIC DESIGN, HE HAS LUNCH!! *dies* That makes it IMPOSSIBLE for me to get in contact with him to find out what he wants done and all... I'm very behind on that and I have to present that next week. I would do it at home, but no. I can't. I have to use Adobe Illustator.. I dont have that of ALL programs.. -.-.

English class is going ok.. I hope. I actually dont mind that class.. even if it is 2 periods long. Drawing and Painting II.. same teacher I have for Graphic Design.. ug. I just cannot stand what we are doing in that class.. I did about half the project in 2 days.. I know I could have done the whole project and more in 3 days, and better than most of everyone, if not everyone, in the class.. but.. *sigh* I'm too worried about my other classes to concentrate on this.

Drivers ed.. heh.. the teacher bumped up a quiz to a 100 for me.. he found I wrote an answer in for one question.. then erased it.. he called me over to ask about it.. and found I got it right. The question was *pulls out test* "Poisoning from fumes from your car's gasoline engine is called __________ poisoning." the answer was carbon monoxide. *sighs*

.. do i have other classes? you know what. I can't even think right now. I think i'm just going to go up to my room and organize all my things.. wait. its .. 1:47 AM -_-; nevermind that. Tomorrow. I will focus on getting everything done. I will focus on school. I will focus on getting things done on time. I will focus on accomplishing more things art-wise. I will bring my pride back. I've been going mentally insane.. ever since my family split up.. its about time I bring myself back together. (I am finally admitting it. I have too much pride to let anyone see me cry about it/let anyone really know how suicidal feeling i get/show how much it messes me up. I much rather people see the side of me I want to become more of. That happier me..)  I have to. I can't fake being happy with everything in my life. I have to turn my life into something I want to live. There are people who I care for more than anything.. if i'm not happy, how am I going to show them I love them?.. geah. I'm starting to ramble now. Good night everyone.. i love you all. Even those of you I hate. I love you right now.

(*thinks back on this post* talk about moodswings.. damn..)